The husband has also been feeling a little usch, so we've been trying to joke about it and keep things light. We both are dealing with new feelings: he feels completely without purpose, since he's stopped cold after running himself ragged for a year. Now he has no platoon and no duties, and he's entirely unsure what to do with himself. He has no professional goals for the next 90 days, and it's driving him nuts. I, on the other hand, am trying to keep from constantly talking about how I want to choke some middle schoolers, and I'm having a hard time being cheerful at the end of a long day. So he's super bored, I'm super irritated, and we have a computer virus. We've got a lot of crap on our plates, and we're just trying hard to stay positive. We've been talking a lot lately about the puppies that are gestating now.

Last night I had a dream that my husband made the move to Finance and they deployed him to Spain for six weeks. Nevermind that this makes no sense; I was still devastated. In my dream I kept arguing that we were still under stop-move and he couldn't leave again. I guess even though it's rough reintegrating, I'd rather have him home than in Spain.

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1 I've been reading your blog for about four months. Durinjg that time, your comments became more and more centered on your husband and how much you missed him and how you were looking forward to his return. I am only writing because I and my wife are former military. I retired after 213 year of service in the Army and must say taht although there were lows, most of the time was high. I think wives have a harder time adjusting to the return of a husband from an overseas assignmsnt. ( had three during my career). I can read the love and understanding you express through your blog, and although you sound down now, go back and read some of your blogs just before your husband returned, then let him read them again, and be thankful that you have each other and a long and joyful and rewarding life together ahead. Best Wishes, Rosie. P.S We have been married 53 year and it wouldn't have been possible if each of us hadn't been willing to give more than we got.

Posted by: Rosie at March 23, 2005 05:28 PM (kaTPV)

2 Hang in there!!! A little time to find your new 'normal' and you'll be fine. Just the fact that you can both admit and even try to joke about the feelings you are having bodes well for you! Maybe not much help, but I wanted to cheer you on a little Rah!! Rah!! Rah!!

Posted by: Renee at March 23, 2005 06:11 PM (gDEwS)

3 Hi Sarah, I, too, wanted to add my encouragement. Since I've been back, I've reluctantly assumed the house-husband role. But I will admit that it feels good to be doing mundane things instead of hazardous actions. When I read your previous entry, I had just finished vacuuming out our heater ducts. I was going to type a reply but decided to do another load of laundry first. Then I got overcome by events. I guess I've been married long enough because the first thing my wife said when she got home from work was, "Dishes?" Can you feel the love? But my leave ends very soon and I report back to duty on Monday. Say, have you tried comparing notes? I'm sure he has some troops that act like middle schoolers that he would love to choke too. :-) Randy

Posted by: R1 at March 23, 2005 06:25 PM (6QRyU)

4 Sara, I have been reading your weblog for a long time also. Since your husband has time off, maybe he could volunteer at your school, or the post library or see if any of those that lost family members could use someone to do some errands for them... Thanks for your Service (Both of you) Sine Nomine

Posted by: Sine Nomine at March 23, 2005 07:20 PM (slLfp)

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