May 07, 2007
Hi, my name is Sarah and I write at trying to grok. I have a hate site dedicated to me, a guy who pokes fun at me for being the #1 War Cheerleader. At first I was not so pleased about this site, but eventually I realized that my role here is indeed war cheerleader, so I may as well be #1, right?
I think in some ways a being a war cheerleader is harder than being a soldier. The military wife faces her husbands mortality on a daily basis. I came to terms with the thought of my own death long ago, and its far easier to face than the death of my husband. Id rather go to war myself than send my husband, even though I cant run 2 miles in under 6 days and about the most discomfort I can handle is banging my funny bone.
A few weeks ago, a buddy of mine from high school returned from a Special Forces deployment. Once he was safely home, I breathed a sigh of relief and mentioned to my husband that every time I emailed my buddy in the final days of his deployment to make plans for dinner when he returned, I felt a tinge of dread, that feeling of what if he doesnt come home to eat this chicken parmesan, as if the mere act of making plans for his return would invoke The Power of the Jinx, as milblogger Tim elegantly described when CPT Patti was in Baghdad. My husband looked at me incredulously and said, Did you really worry he might not come home? as if the thought had never occurred to him.
I pointed out to my husband something that every servicemember needs to remember when he thinks of his family back home. Weve never been to Iraq or Afghanistan. We dont know what its like. We imagine the worst, and our mental war zone would probably seem cartoonish to you. But we simply cant fully grasp what war is like. And while you know when youre safe or bored or having a slow day, we dont. Many times you can see danger coming if you have to go on a mission and you can emotionally prepare yourself to let slip the dogs of war; we have to stay emotionally prepared for the entire deployment, never sure of when your mortality is on the line. Your deployment is filled with the ebb and flow of adrenaline; your life is monotonous days punctuated by moments of anxiety or excitement; our adrenaline is always half-on, since every moment that were not on the phone with you is a moment when youre possibly in danger. Such is the life for those on the homefront, those who stand and wait. Such is the life my husband cant begin to understand, any more than I can really understand his.
So Ive decided Im taking the insult back. I wear the title of #1 War Cheerleader with pride, for its one of the toughest jobs in the Army.
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