1 I will keep you in my prayers and hope that you continue to improve. I know that telling you to try to remain positive is probably not what you want to hear, but I was a fairly negative person for a long time and I am finding (in spite of the things I have to deal with daily) my way in trying to keep the pessimist in me at bay, it only makes other things feel worse. I can't imagine having gone through all you have to add more, but then I thought the same thing about me.....platitudes are not my thing, so I will just end it with letting you know that I'm thinking of you. ~ASW

2 I am sure it will get better. It probably just requires a little patience.

3 Just read the loss of faith for the first time. My faith must have died when I was a child, because I never, EVER, allow myself to get excited about anything. And I've imagined all the horrors, and lived a few of them. My only comfort, and the only thing that ever gives me peace with anything, is to try to be entirely present. Right now, right here. I will be excited when the good things happen, I will be sad when the bad things happen. No need to alter my mood right now for what may or may not come to pass. I dunno if that's a loss of faith, or just the essence of zen. Maybe it's both. But it helps. One of my friends got lasik not long ago. It seems like it was a couple of weeks before he was 100%. I'll ask him for details (he keeps spreadsheets on everything so I'm sure he can tell me to the last excruciating second about how long it took for his vision to be great. and he had the coke bottle glasses beforehand.)