March 25, 2008

REPRIMANDING MYSELF

Must...stop...fingers from typing.

Stop talking about not having a baby.

Just stop.

No one wants to hear it. No one cares. I mean, they do care, but they don't need to hear about it every day.

Just talk about something else. What's Obama doing? Talk about that guy who died and came back to life. Something, anything else.

But all I can do is sit here and think about how it wasn't supposed to be like this. Having a baby was supposed to be happy, fun, natural. I never envisioned this for myself.

Oh lord, I'm Dante Hicks.

Just, bleh. Talk about something else. Don't write about this anymore. The more you write about it, the more people comment and send you emails, which means the more you think about it, which means the more depressed you get.

Duh. Stop it.

Posted by: Sarah at 08:46 AM | Comments (10) | Add Comment
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1 *hugs* I left something for you over on my blog. The SPAM filters aren't letting it through, though.

Posted by: Stephanie at March 25, 2008 10:35 AM (kzbE/)

2 "Oh lord, I'm Dante Hicks." Without the facial furniture and pants tucked in the boots, naturally. Nice to know that the hometown heroes are all worried about the same things. All my best. And, oh yeah - what's up slut? (think we'll be explaining that one to everyone else also?) I'm hoping for you. - trr

Posted by: Sarah's pinko commie friend at March 25, 2008 10:53 AM (c0h9C)

3 Meh, could be worse. No one could send you emails or comments. How 'bout a Charlie update? Cute dogs fix everything. Serioulsy? What do you think about Hilary 'mis-speaking' about Bosnia?

Posted by: Mare at March 25, 2008 11:02 AM (EI19G)

4 Howzabout we talk about my musings over my dog's orientation? The way he pined about Charlie leaving, I have my suspicions... That would explain his fastidiousness and penchant for velvet dog beds, though.

Posted by: airforcewife at March 25, 2008 11:30 AM (mIbWn)

5 I wouldn't call your posts about trying to conceive 'entertaining' but I am totally mesmerized by the window into your life and feelings. I know how you feel! Three years and three miscarriages fucking sucked and I really didn't overly blog about it but now wish that I had. And I, too, thought that it was getting too obsessive..... But your feelings and experiences are so true. It is a human suffering, my friend suffering, and when I read about how you're doing and not about stupid Hillary or slippery Obama, I am relieved. Talk about overkill! Obsessive? Yeah, but I am, too, and so are probably most of your loyal friends and readers! I have full faith that whatever road you are led/forced down, you will not only make the best of it, but by sharing, help others who are feeling exactly as you are but don't know how to say it. And now that I am personally out of that shit-storm, I can't give good advice.... Except to keep on truckin! I would tell my husband on the 'lottery nights' to "make a deposit" for me to sleep on. It worked eventually, but damn if I hadn't given up hope that last time.... "Do it if you want to, but I'll be watching Craig Ferguson." How much is too much? You'll know when you get there....

Posted by: Allison at March 25, 2008 07:28 PM (2PnS2)

6 Allison makes some excellent points. I've never been through the experience but have watched it really really suck for a lot of my friends. Write about it, don't write about it. Do whatever you feel you need to do to get through it. We're here because we like hearing what you have to say. Having friends gets you through some of the crappiest times in life.

Posted by: Mare at March 26, 2008 04:58 AM (EI19G)

7 If writing about it helps, then do it. Write it here, or put it down on paper. There's always the satisfaction of the 'delete' button when you're finished, or you can set it on fire or tear it to shreds when you are done. If posting helps, then do it. Don't worry about what the rest of us want to read. If you want/need our support, we'll always be here to provide it. No matter what the topic.

Posted by: Ann M. at March 26, 2008 08:19 AM (HFUBt)

8 Sarah - I agree with the others. Sometimes it just feels better to write it out. This is your blog. Write if you want to. I dont even know you but I will keep reading. I will keep hoping that your dreams come true & that where ever the road leads, there will still be happiness. Take care -

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