I always feel weird giving too much information, but I feel like I need to explain why I am so crazy and why this is such a rollercoaster for me.  To do so, I have to tell you personal stuff like how I woke up in the middle of the night bleeding profusely, more than last week, far more than simple spotting.  And how my heart just sank, and how I never fell back asleep and just kept bleeding and bleeding.

And how I spent another morning composing my "the baby is dead" post in my head.

But the baby is not dead.

John Elway baby is progressing just fine.  He even did a little dance for us on screen, which was probably the most amazing thing I've ever seen, and downright adorable.  Just a few little wiggles to say hello and to let me know that he's still there and still going strong.

Heartbeat looks good, umbilical cord growing strong, and we even saw one little arm.  (Hopefully there's another one just like it on the other side.)

He's almost an inch long.

And he's a he only because I now think of it as John Elway.  Despite my initial longing for a boy, I have completely come to terms with having a girl over the past 2.5 years and think that would be perfectly fine too.

But the bleeding, I cannot stand any more of it.  It causes so much stress.  The doctor assumes that it is a reaction to the progesterone supplements, which he says I only have to tough out for another week and a half.

This baby has made it further than any other baby before.  I feel good about that.  I will feel better once I stop bleeding.

Another look in the kangaroo pouch is scheduled for next week.

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1 I am relieved the doctor feels comfortable there is a reason for the bleeding even if it is terribly scary.  I am so happy to hear everything is on track and hope things just keep on progressing. Minus the bleeding and nausea would be fantastic.  Yay for John Elway!

Posted by: wifeunit at July 29, 2009 12:44 PM (4B1kO)

2 I've been checking in all afternoon hoping to get the update.  It is so wonderful to hear that the baby is fine!  Continuing to be happy and hopeful.

Posted by: Courtney at July 29, 2009 12:44 PM (jKra5)

3

I'm so happy to hear that your pregnancy is still on course. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Posted by: Val L. at July 29, 2009 12:56 PM (4iXKP)

4 I'm sitting here with tears of happiness in my eyes. I've checked three times here just like Courtney. What a thrill. I wish they had ultrasounds when I had babies.
The first one I saw was my granddaughter 16 years ago, she was full term (9.4 oz) and looked like her little nose was pressed up against a window. I had the most awesome feeling that I was in the middle of 180 years. I had left my 81 year old Mother in Rockport to fly to Sherman Oaks to be there when she was born and I figured she and my mother would have 90 years with advancements in medicine. To hear that heartbeat and see that baby was a feeling that truly describes awesome. She is 16 now, brilliant, planning to be a physician and starting this next semester of her junior  year she will be doing rounds at a hospital in anticipation of med school. She actually plans to also get a PhD to and do research.
Life is one day at a time, one week at a time and then beyond.

Posted by: Ruth H at July 29, 2009 01:18 PM (JCV5R)

5 I am sending you big hugs and love. I am getting slightly more happy for you as each week goes by. 

Posted by: Reasa at July 29, 2009 03:36 PM (uKniq)

6 An inch! An arm! Wiggly baby! I'm so happy for you.

Posted by: Heather at July 29, 2009 03:38 PM (BjblJ)

7 Yeah, the last two comments above pretty much cover it for me.  How wonderful.    I doubt I'll truly stop holding my breath for you until you're holding a healthy baby in your arms, but I let some air go today.  Just. Wonderful. 

*Keeping up with prayers, love, and happy thoughts (and happy tears)*

Posted by: FbL at July 29, 2009 05:31 PM (HwqvF)

8 If it's a boy, you know you're gonna have to name him Joey, right? 

Posted by: FbL at July 29, 2009 05:44 PM (HwqvF)

9 CDC urging pregnant women to get flu shots!

Hang in there BABY!!!


Good Luck

Sine Nomine

Posted by: Sine Nomine at July 29, 2009 05:49 PM (kjvtd)

10 YIPEEE!  Go John Elway! 

Posted by: RC at July 29, 2009 07:28 PM (0bg5E)

11 week-to-week kanagaroo photos! i can feel the incredible agony and stress and equal bits of joy that must bring. hang in there!

Posted by: Darla at July 29, 2009 10:54 PM (LP4DK)

12 I am so relieved every time I get an update like this.  Nothing that compares to your relief, I'm sure, and I can't imagine the emotional rollercoaster you are one when you wake up like that, or the hours you spend in the ER waiting on retarded medicos to take care of the kid with the sniffles before they get to you.

If you need someone to call the hospital and throw rank around, I'm more than willing to make a long-distance ass of myself, and my sister WORKS at the Pope/FT Bragg hospital, (till October) if you need an inside track.  A phone call is all it takes.  I can even fake a long-distance call from your DH calling all the way from "over there" if need be.  I have no shame if it'll help.

Other than that, Joseph Charles has a nice ring to it, as does Josephine Charlotte.  Since I doubt anyone can come up with a name that includes "pole position."

Posted by: chuck at July 30, 2009 07:49 AM (bMH2g)

13 Sarah - I was thinking about you yesterday/today. Am happy to read this latest update. Thinking of you

Posted by: Keri at July 30, 2009 08:20 AM (k6Euw)

14 quietly, quietly whispering, "go john elway!  go!"

Posted by: Lissa at July 30, 2009 09:01 AM (eSfKC)

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