Time is moving like molasses this morning.
I have to wait until noon again to get my bloodwork done. I hear the clock ticking in the silent house and I can't concentrate on anything else.
Will the numbers be high enough? Will they not? I thought I could handle another dead baby, since I've done it once before, but until yesterday I didn't realize just how devastating that would feel again.
I don't feel pregnant this morning. I feel like my body has already given up.
Last night I went out and bought baby clothes, just to try to feel normal.
I am going to the hospital and then I'm not coming home. My dear friend has invited Charlie and me to spend the night at her family's house. A sleepover of sorts. It seems so silly, but she insisted that I not be alone.
Please don't let the baby be dead.
I am so glad that Claire is there. I really wanted to insist that you buy a plane ticket and come out here for a while and visit Erin and me.
My heart is with you. Please call anytime if you want to talk.
Posted by: Sis B at May 16, 2008 07:15 AM (0ZS+T)
I'm kind of jealous that you're sleeping with someone other than me, BUT I'm glad you have someone nearby to hang out with.
I'm crossing all kinds of things & sending up prayers that all will be well.
I wish I could be there to hold your hand and give you a gigundous hug.
You have my number.
Posted by: Guard Wife at May 16, 2008 07:51 AM (20Lnu)
Hot Fuzz is a good one.
And you know - if you need anything you just have to tell me...
If the nurse gives you any more crap today, I'd be more than happy to drive down and pop her a good one in the nose.
Posted by: airforcewife at May 16, 2008 07:54 AM (mIbWn)
I am hoping for good things for you. keeping my fingers and toes crossed.
Posted by: liberal army wife at May 16, 2008 08:39 AM (tqDBA)
Loss for words...
many prayers this morning, I have lifted the 3 of you up on many...
You know where I am...
Wish I was closer...
Posted by: awtm at May 16, 2008 08:51 AM (nNW3E)
I'm hoping for the best for you. Even though you won't be home I hope you'll let us know how it goes (they WILL get you the results TODAY, won't they?)
I think nurses sometimes forget what it's like to be a patient (or just don't care. Which is worse.)
And, I've done that before too. Going out & buying baby clothes. I guess I thought it would help. (help me feel better, or the baby "want" to stay, I'm not sure)
Posted by: sharona at May 16, 2008 08:52 AM (BeRta)
Saying some prayers for you.
Posted by: Reasa at May 16, 2008 10:20 AM (nDtqQ)
Ditto what Sis B, Guard Wife and AWTM said.
You will be in my thoughts and prayers all weekend.
Posted by: FbL at May 16, 2008 03:48 PM (HwqvF)
your in my thoughts. i am hoping for great results for you three.
Posted by: trying at May 17, 2008 02:40 AM (NJQf+)
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