May 19, 2008


Do you have the time
To listen to me whine
About nothing and everything
All at once
I am one of those
Melodramatic fools
Neurotic to the bone
No doubt about it

Well, we're still pretty much in the same boat. My levels rose but didn't come anywhere near double.
So they're not falling, but they're not exactly conclusively good.
Now we just wait until the ultrasound on the 29th to see if we see a heartbeat.
I don't know if I should be happy or sad, honestly.
I have no idea what's going on.
We have a 15% chance for a successful pregnancy.
Maybe worse, considering the fate of our last pregnancy.
This may be the longest ten days of my life.
I also look like a heroin addict with bruises and needle marks from giving too many vials of blood.

Sometimes I give myself the creeps
Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
It all keeps adding up
I think I'm cracking up
Am I just paranoid?
Or am I pregnant...

Posted by: Sarah at 06:17 AM | Comments (17) | Add Comment
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1 Prayers are continuing...

Posted by: Toni at May 19, 2008 06:36 AM (OoGre)

2 *hugs*

Posted by: airforcewife at May 19, 2008 07:21 AM (mIbWn)

3 I have been thinking about you ALL weekend . . . virtual hugs! I got your email last week and will reply soon . . . think I might just do it. Take care . . . Heidi

Posted by: Heidi at May 19, 2008 08:19 AM (E0L31)

4 best advice I have for times like this....hope for the best, but prepare for the worst. (I'm hoping for the best for you!)

Posted by: sharona at May 19, 2008 08:33 AM (BeRta)

5 You are not whining. And, yeah, we've got the time.

Posted by: Maggie at May 19, 2008 08:56 AM (XiJJE)

6 Wonderful tune that perfectly describes some of the most 'interesting' times in our lives. I thought about you the entire weekend. We're all continuing to hope the news will be good. I really hope the time between now & the ultrasound pass quickly so you can have the answers you need. Big {{{Hugs}}}.

Posted by: Guard Wife at May 19, 2008 09:09 AM (BslEQ)

7 Yes, we have the time (some of us lurk, but we're here). You've got all the prayers and well wishes I can muster up for you.

Posted by: Susan at May 19, 2008 10:01 AM (4aKG6)

8 Sarah - I am sorry you are having to go through this. Thinking of you. Keri

Posted by: Keri at May 19, 2008 10:28 AM (HXpRG)

9 I marked my calendar to think about you extra-extra hard.

Posted by: Allison at May 19, 2008 11:07 AM (GJsMj)

10 I don't think you're whining, either. Just keep thinking positively and try to stay busy. I am continuing to send you good thoughts.

Posted by: Ann M. at May 19, 2008 11:17 AM (Yhlry)

11 So.... you sound like a pregnant woman. In my books until you hear otherwise, you are. And when I think your name it is an automatic prayer, or at this point, a plea, for you and your present and future family.

Posted by: Ruth H at May 19, 2008 11:41 AM (w9ltj)

12 Praying for you, Sarah. *hugs*

Posted by: Emily at May 19, 2008 12:00 PM (jAos7)

13 Hugs and prayers to you, dear Sarah! I'm so sorry that you have to go through all this. You tell that baby that he or she is soooo loved and anticipated!

Posted by: Lara at May 19, 2008 12:48 PM (qNwer)

14 I was also thinking about you all weekend. I am praying for you and your family, Sarah!

Posted by: Vypergirl at May 19, 2008 03:17 PM (qe77L)

15 I normally lurk, but wanted to share my story. I had taken a home pregnancy test, but it came back negative. I went to the doctor, took a test there, and it was JUST positive. They did a blood test, and my hormones were there, but very low. I was back at that lab every other day for a week, while they tested my hormone levels. AND my husband was away at AT for the national guard. At the end of the week, my hormone levels had risen to the point it was considered a viable pregnancy, but I was considered moderate risk until I delivered. My daughter turned two in Feb. Keep positive.

Posted by: Debbie at May 19, 2008 03:36 PM (34Ece)

16 Another lurker here. I've been reading your blog for several years now and have commented a few times. God bless you. I pray for you, your husband and your children to be. Your bravery is an inspiration to all who read your blog.

Posted by: Pamela at May 19, 2008 06:50 PM (jE/d5)

17 Sarah, Just wanted you to know I'm praying for you, too! Hang in there!

Posted by: Rachel at May 22, 2008 05:44 PM (1pJbs)

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