The last time, I had a vivid dream about the welcome home ceremony. Last night I dreamt that the husband and I were back together in our kitchen. I was wearing the outfit I plan to wear to pick him up, and he was drinking a beer. I woke up with a jolt and realized disappointedly that it was just a dream.

Today has been a very long day. Right now was the original time I was supposed to go pick him up.

I thought I'd better get back to Real blogging today instead of this dumb personal stuff I've been doing. But I can't seem to concentrate on anything lately. I just can't get into the news. Even Blagojevich's bleep-laden tirades couldn't compel me to blog. Only to laugh at home and tease my parents about living in Illinois.

I'm just sitting here crocheting and looking at the clock. Maybe I ought to do some things on that list; it seems healthier than this Waiting Game. I thought about going in to work today even though I got the day off, but the only task I have left to do at work is to put together more of those foam structures. That definitely ain't healthy.

And I haven't heard anything else today, no more updates, no new timeline, no hint of things to come.

Just lots of crocheting.

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A couple of you have been freaked out of late by my blog post titles. No, I'm not throwing in the towel anytime soon. You're stuck with me.

By the way, I finally watched The Terminator tonight. And yes, other people on my case, I have gotten the memo that The Wire is good. I plan to watch that with my husband though, not without him. I gotta get my chick flicks in before he gets home...what guy wants to watch Die Hard or The Terminator?

Oh wait...

And while I have your attention: did one of you lovely imaginary people get me one of these fantastic bracelets for Christmas? It came in the mail with no note, and it's not from my mother or husband, so I'm clueless.

Incidentally, my husband said, "Oh, well dang...wish I had thought of it."

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1 LOVE that bracelet! Etsy is so fun. Wish I could say I found that for you, but I'm not that cool apparently.

Posted by: Guard Wife at December 07, 2008 09:21 AM (eb8pN)

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I used to be bothered that my friends are not from my Real Life. I used to think there was something wrong with me. I used to feel that something was missing.

But this day was a tipping point. Since then, I have felt the Importance Scale tip from real life to imaginary.

And some days I am just overwhelmed by how happy I am.
How much I love you all.
Today is one such day.

Tomorrow night we have an FRG meeting. I don't know anyone in my FRG. I don't even know where my husband's company is located; I had to ask him via chat how to get there.

My real life is the illusion, and you are my world.

I live in a gulch in my mind and I am surrounded by the most wonderful people.

I don't think it's possible for anyone to feel more blessed than I do right now.

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1 I know what you mean, and am very grateful for all my blog friends, but it sure is nice to sit and chat face to face sometimes.

Posted by: Beth at December 04, 2008 01:12 PM (qkeSl)

2 I, too, know what you mean. It is nice to sit face to face and it's even better when it's face to face with an e-pal or bloggy buddy. Blessings are bestowed us from many places and my bloggy buddies are no less than a blessing. You all get me in ways that real-life people can't even begin to think about. Happy Thursday!

Posted by: Susan at December 04, 2008 01:33 PM (kOpTG)

3 I used to think there was something wrong with me. There was never anything wrong with you. Sometimes you align with those nearby; sometimes you don't. Physical proximity has nothing to do with common ground. When your husband returns, the scale will tip the other way again. Real life will become capital-R Real. But we won't become illusions. We will remain real. And we will always be here for you.

Posted by: Amritas at December 04, 2008 06:16 PM (zc9j7)

4 OK by the time we are like 80, they will have those star trekky teleporter thingys. Then you can teach me to knit... Finding friends that truly fit your heart that is HUGE, and you are part of that for me. I feel so sorry for people who have friends like "the neighbor, I do not really like", or the lady from work, that someone is nice to at work, and than goes home to talk about the wierd person.... that is an empty place. If you think about what the train did for America...I think the internet is to friendship to me...

Posted by: awtm at December 04, 2008 07:47 PM (EzXYD)

5 I am pleased to be your friend, however distant that I be.

Posted by: deskmerc at December 04, 2008 08:26 PM (pYOXQ)

6 See, if you were in my real life I'd be wondering if this were directed toward me and what your motive for saying it is. BUT, because I know that our friendship is genuine, I know this is at least partly aimed in my direction & that you know I feel the same. Now, if I'm delusional and you were talking about everyone BUT me, don't post it...and I'll never know. LOL

Posted by: Guard Wife at December 05, 2008 03:49 AM (N3nNT)

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